Queer Fat Femme Guide to the Net

1. Saw the Untitled Feminist Show tonight at BAC (but produced? by PS122) with Heather and it was really funny, fun and provoking. Once I found out it was almost entirely movement-based I was a little dubious but it was a great queer/woman/faggot vulnerability affirming work. World Famous *BOB* and Becca Blackwell (my friends) were in it and were of course magical (*BOB* cradles her boobs, breaks down striptease, has a mock fight and Becca does a queer masculinities movement monologue that was so wonderful). The other actors were extraordinary, especially a comedic mimed castration fantasy sequence by Lady Rizo. And a giant naked human vacuum cleaner using five bodies. It was gender on stage and it was gorgeous. Like a long naked poem.

2. Seeing amazing art was great for me tonight. So was seeing Heather. Having a burger and a flight of beers with a bestie was what my tantrum having soul needed. This move is weighing stress on me financially and psychologically and I constantly have to remind myself that worrying about getting everything done is not actually going to get anything done. So I am trying to check out of that stress. Also we acted out the beer menu as we tasted the beers in the flight. I made a rooster noise for the rooster brew.

3. I also recognize I am coping personally with a lot of stress and change right now and it is really okay to want to throw a purse on the floor with all my might. 

4. I sent a multi-part email asking for help today and just asking was really helpful. Even if a third of the folks I asked can show up for an hour or two it will be a huge weight lifted off of me.

5. Tonight The World Famous *BOB* introduced me to an incredible downtown artist as a “talented performer, femmecee, show producer and also she’s a well-dressed lawyer.” Sometimes my life is so incredible I have to pinch myself.